This past month has been the most physically painful time of my entire life, experiencing a severe case of shingles. For the first three weeks the excruciating nerve pain was stabbing, burning, and throbbing in half of my abdomen and back (right side).
Now as I finally begin to notice some improvement, the pain is only burning and throbbing, with no stabbing sensations, and instead of the intensity shooting off the charts, I would say it’s about a 6 on a scale of 1-10. You still feel miserable, but it’s bearable—you can sleep for several hours at a time, you can focus on other things to forget for a while, and you can begin to imagine a return to health and feeling well once more. One doctor says I could feel this pain for the rest of my life; another said that it will go away, but he’s not sure when.
Over the last few weeks, my husband and I have watched photo slide shows on our PC—reliving vacations to Hawaii, California, New York, New Mexico, Ireland, England, most of Europe—all with awe and laughter, feeling so blessed to have seen so much of the world and to have been able to share those experiences with someone who loves you as much as you love them. I do not take my blessings for granted!
I continue to pray for a full recovery of normal sensations and being pain-free. Thank you so much to all of you who have sent loving wishes, kind thoughts, and much-appreciated prayers.
This week has also been an emotionally painful time for two reasons: my mom is experiencing a great deal of physical pain and continues to say that she’s ready for her life to end. Many of us know too well the agony of watching a loved one slipping away. Also, a beloved family cat named Jack, had to be put to sleep after 18 years of companionship with my son; his pain is deep. The love of an animal is unconditional and pure, and the memories are only about love and time well-spent.
Our hearts ache when the hearts of others hold pain. With all of life’s pain, misery, and sorrow though, we are also blessed at times with what seems like more joy than we can possibly hold—thank God for those times! As they happen, intentionally let those moments make deep and lasting impressions in your mind, heart, and soul. And when you need to feel uplifted and pain-free, even just for a little while, remember them again and again, let them fill you with the same sensations and intensity as you originally felt—that’s what memories are for.
Thank you for joining me on this journey. See you next time…
Blessings, Love & Light,
Touch a Heart with TIA
Copyright 2015 Cathy W. Lauro